My Final Thoughts about Integral Health

         I look around me and all I see are people stressing over their health and well-being. I never thought too much about my health. I just eat whatever I was in the mood for. I stressed more over my wellness more because I have so much going through my mind that I find myself becoming forgetful. If I am not in perfect health or come close to it then everything else seems to be off balance. I know that when I go to the doctors I expect to hear some answers to my problems. So if my health care professional is not in good health psychologically, spiritually and physically, how is he/she going to help me? They have to be mentally fit to understand where I am coming from with the question I ask and see why I feel the way I do. They need to be spiritual open to guide their patients on a path that will help them better themselves and physically fit to keep with the changes that goes on concerning health and wellness. As for myself, I need to get physically fit because I feel like my body is breaking down. I feel like I get enough exercise at work but it is not the same as training your body to deal with the physical strains at work. Spiritually I can do better so when it comes to mental state I see things more clearly and not over think it.

         I feel that what I learned in this class that I should be making changes in my life to benefit me so I can have less stressful out breaks. I call them out breaks because I let my kids get the best of me. I deal can deal with the stuff I go through at work and I can talk to people to help them out but for some reason I get excited when it comes to my children. So on the scale from 1 to 10; I give myself a 9 psychologically with dealing with other people but a 5 when it comes to personal stuff. Spiritually, I am 6 ½ and physically I am a 5. I need work in all areas but I will get there in time.

         I believe that once I finally slow myself down and take time out for me, that meditation will help me get to where I want to be. I need time to breathe and relax without someone wanting something from me. I going to take two days out of the week to spend some alone time to mediate and clear my mind of all thoughts that invade my space. I give advice all day long about all types of stuff. I was told that I know how to talk to people to give them what they want but I wish I could that for myself. Once I get my mental state of my back on track for my then spiritually I will be free. My body can relax and I will get back to the things I use to do like exercises. I am a work in progress.

         Right now I find everything to be a challenge for me because I am so set in my ways things I know what is best for me and I don’t. I want to reach that point to where I find the path to Human Flourishing. Reading these books on Integral Health and Consciousness and Healing showed me that I am doing things the wrong way. I changed over the years and my patience with certain things is short and that is not me. But, people and kids still keep coming to me and I keep listening and being there even they still keep doing the same stupid stuff. My mind, body and spirit have to stay together because whether I like it or not they will always come. So I better practice the loving-kindness and having a subtle-mind because this is just the beginning of where I am going with my life and career.

         In six months I see myself doing what I am being trained to do as far as being a counselor and probation officer and getting myself ready mentally, physical and spiritually ready for the task. Like I stated before, who wants a professional who can’t handle there own affairs or even believe in the things they do. I have to be able to keep up with the changing times and if I am unhealthy and not well then I am no good for anybody. So I have to push myself to stay on track because at the end, when everything is said and done, I want to be proud that I was able to help those change their life around and stay out of trouble. Plus, that I was able to see my kids get to where they need to be because I took care of myself.

Unit 8

Hello everyone,

Well, mediation and I have not been seeing eye to eye very often. I guess because when I do try meditating my 17 year old finds a way to push those buttons and everything I learned went right out the window. I do like the visual because I get to escape my reality and live in a time when things were good and I was more out going and relaxed. I picture myself with children who listen and out on their own living life and not bothering me. :) How I love the image and one day real soon I will make it happen and I hold on to that because it pushes me to push them to do what they need to do. I am going to teach them how to mediate so we can all be on the same level and they can push all that drama away from them and me. I need peace because everyday I feel myself breaking down because I always have pain all over my body when I never felt like this before. I know I can benefit from some of the practices, I just have to stop letting things distract me so easily.  

Meditation

I am not good when it comes to meditating because my mind is always busy. But, when my kids leave me alone long enough to breath, I try to see myself free from worries and at peace with myself. I block out all negative thoughts and focus on what will make me happy with my life. To be free from my older children and for them to believe that they can move on with me doing everything for them. I still have a lot to learn so my psychological and spiritually well being can be at ease and I can relax more. Until I learn to relax and let go of certain things, meditation will only be a temporary fix for me.

The saying " One cannot head another where one has not gone himself," reminds me of what I said to my daughter and her friends when I was giving them advice. I said, " I can't give you advice about something if I have not been through it." How can you tell someone to do something if you never been through it yourself. There is no way you can understand how one feels if you yourself have not lived it. That goes for any practice in the health and wellness programs. You can not help me if you can help yourself or even believe in what you peach. Psychologically, physically and spiritually you have to be in tune with yourself in order to help others.   

Universal Loving-Kindness

Hello Classmates and Professor,

I have been going over these exercises and seeing if I can get to where they want me to be. Well, at first I was able to relax and free my mind from all negative thoughts that have been weighing me down at times. I have always been a person to wish others well and I like to see when others are happy and things are going there way. I always wish the best for others and try to help when I can. I don't like to see people suffer and I don't like seeing people unhealthy. I am sure we are all giving people at one point.

But, there is a limit to this loving-kindness when you end up surrounded by some messed people who like to take your kindness for weakness. You get those you blame you for the unhappiness and take it out on you. I say this because it is only so much you can take before you snap and end up saying a few choice words to some people. I give advice, I help if I can, and I will even give you a place to rest your head if needed. What I will not do is kiss ---and let you disrespect me.

I feel like I am being tested and some days I well take a deep breath and let things go. Sometimes I will walk away and put distance between myself and the person who is working on my nerves. I found myself meditating and trying to bring my mind to a stillness but I also find myself waiting to tell some to mediate on this. :) How can you flourish when there are so many people who won't be on your level? How do you make this exercise work when half the world is full of so much pain, anger, disappointments, messed up relationships, and so on and so. The list is long and most people or not born with common sense or have not learn it with life experiences.

It works when the people around you are open minded and can understand and see where you coming from. So, doing these exercise don't work for me unless I am alone and don't talk to anybody because when I do, Oh my goodness! they throw me off. Maybe it is just people that are around because I do better with strangers than the people I know. Funny but very true.   

Why Me ?

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to share a little something with you. I realized that for the past few years I have always had teens in place. No matter where I move to, they always seem to follow me. Someone always wants to stay with me for a few days or they come and talk to me. I get rid of one and a few days later I get another. They tell my daughter she is so lucky to have a mom like me. One girl wrote her a letter telling her how she wish she was her. But of course your children don't see it that way. I ask my daughter, " Why do you always bring the kids to me?" She said so I can fit them. I just had to laugh because I told her that I was still working on her and her brother. I could be in the store and someone will always find their way to me and just start talking. Before I left Wal-Mart, I know her who life story. She was such a nice women and I just thought to myself, she must really feel comfortable talking to me. I always felt that I was not approachable because when I go out I always have a serious look on my face so people wouldn't talk to me. :) I guess that just makes me a challenge to see if I am really the way I look. My mom said it is something about me but I don't see it. I know there is something God wants me to and this is his way of showing me that I have gift and what I do with it is up to me. I see myself in this field of helping people but the question is, " Am I ready to handle that type of responsibility?"   

Where I Want To Be

Hello classmates and Professor,

I find it kinda of hard to rate myself on a scale from 1 to 10 but I will give it a try. My physical well-being I will give myself a 8, spiritual I will rate myself at 7 1/2 because I am stilling learning to find myself and learning to let go of things that is blocking me for receiving my blessing and psychological after everything I been through and dealt with and I am still here and people still keep coming to me for advice, I give myself a 9. It means God is still watching over me and guiding me to where I still can be strong and speak with ease to help others out.

As far as developing a goal for myself, I don't do that because things change or don't go as I plan then I feel like I set myself up and I get upset. So, I live day by day and whatever happens I deal with it and whatever I need to do, I take care of it. I not one for exercise because I am small and I need to gain weight and not lose it. If we get a good strong wind, you will see me passing you by. :) You will say, " there goes our classmate Sonia, I told that girl to eat a hamburger." (lol) I know that spiritual I would like to learn how to find scriptures in the Bible to help me or someone out when you could use one at that moment when you feel kinda lost or upset and remember them when I do find it. I need more quiet time and to stop over thinking a situation when it's not called for. I give myself headaches to times. So, psychological I need some me time because I am always doing for others and I forget to put me first at times.

now for that relaxation exercise, I tried to get into but closing my eyes and picturing what he was saying but my daughter kept bothering me and asking me if I was okay. Then I watched the clip and it had all these colors and waves that moved with his voice. I felt like I was tripping and following the colors like I was inside of it that I wasn't paying any attention to what he was saying and for a minute I tuned my daughter out to where I didn't hear anything. So, I guess in a way it worked.